i spoilt it?

shit! i spoilt it..
accidentally with my stupid hands which i cant control when i'm typing something..
but actually there's few person who got it..
so its nothing special..
and what happened today?
we got scolded by our class teacher early in the morning..
though it starts making me feel guilty or something..
but at least i think that we were happy that time..
so i've forgot about it few hours after that..
and have a really really boring day in class..
where i cant concentrate for no reason
and having no one sitting with me after pig pig left..
and trying to do something really odd n weird around.. stool!
thats really stupid and please dont do that again, gal!
its really confusing people around..
and the rest of my time in school..
i really day-dreaming.. thinking bout something else..

Someone asked me this few days..
they asked me whether do i really wanna study business in the future..
i'll answer 70% it will be true..
and after you ask why..
i'll answer the same old reason..
Science-related courses are definitely boring..
its not the matter of you have to study bout the same things in your four years university/ college life..
its just the matter of what kind of jobs u'll have in your future..
everyday facing food and do experiment on it to improve it if u study food science?
or everyday medicine when u study the well-pay pharmacy?
or what else?
my mind is totally blank for now..
and later.. why don't you leave and study Business now?
i have no idea why i did this stupid decision, staying in chong hwa for one more year and fighting with bio, chem, physics and maths..
and having exams exams and exams for the whole year..
and keep on failing it ( just for maths!) ...
as i hate the feel of failure.. although i started to ignore the feel after times..
but luckily there's still some reasons why i don't quit..
or maybe some place i want to go must have at least a foundation for it..
so study in chong hwa would be the cheapest..
maybe this year would be the stupiest year i've ever had for making wrong decisions all time..
but maybe as someone said..
Think wisely in the coming months and decide what you really want..

Theres no point i'm typing bout this with my poor english..
ohya.. i saw my brother's msn name writing:
you can do the simulation:- graduation and lead to a normal life.. and maybe u will live happily ever after..
but i hate that.. i dont want that lar!
and thats why he ask me to go for seminars..
i wanted to go lar gor.. but no one accompany me! so cham~
and someone told me bout chances.. like giving a talk
stool! i know you have to appreciate every chance and opportunity you have..
but sometimes you do have to believe that something is really impossible!
and please dont ever try to like/ love someone who will forever wont likes/love u..
this doesn't mean something special.. just some normal feelings..
what will happen tomorrow? nobody knows..
hope everything will be okay especially when we meet and he wont take it too serious..
and good luck to everyone who are taking the JPA interview in the coming days..!