Its freed~

Finally.. its half freed!
I'm extremely excited n happy now..
But a bit weird.. hehe ^^

i'm okay already.. for now..
Cause i don't care bout that so much..
at least i put down something that has burdened me for months
and now have to concentrate in my studies..

And Mid-year exam is around the corner..
but i'm still so lazy..
After seeing Fang studying so hard for the whole day..
i feel sorry to myself.. hehe ^^
Okay.. reduce my online time to mostly one hour a day now.. =.="
And must quickily study already!!

对不起谢谢

今天原本要去看医生
结果塞在车隆重超过两个小时

我在车里想了很久……
我究竟做过什么令一个人那么讨厌我？

我原本真得很搞不懂状况
而且最后一年了
真得不想为了一个认识几个月的朋友
而搞到几年了的朋友闹成这样
结果问了几个人
也没有人真的一五一十地说完事情的经过
结果就找上了慧
慧, 真得很感谢你
至少你让我知道我应该怎么做
其实原本你叫我打给他
我真的犹豫了很久
因为我很怕他会骂我
我怕他会听到使我就把电话盖上了
我犹豫了很久

10点了……
我终于觉得我还是应该打一通电话给他
原本也不知道怎么开口
就只是想说一声
对不起！
不过现在至少我知道发生什么事了
也至少他说他没生气我
而且不知不觉中也讲了一个小时
至少在接近一个小时的谈话当中
我领悟了另外一些事...
而且知道了我的存在、"利用"价值..
至于你们爱讲什么.. 那随你们啦..
现在，除了原本的一句对不起
我还想说.. 谢谢你！
谢谢一直在帮我的朋友..
我会努力的改过的
因为我也不想变成我们看到的他一样..

慧仪、玲慧..我真得没事的..
友情永远是最重要的
我不会为了那么一点的小事而不爽你们

重拾心情吧..

最近心情真的也不太好
刚才才不知不觉哭了一会儿
我什么也不想知道、不想看到..
回想一下
不知不觉又四个月了
虽然在这几个月里
我终于看出自己是怎样的一个人
可是我真的不想也不要再这样下去了
也很讨厌现在的这种感觉
只想把记忆删除掉
重拾自己的心情好好地过完在这里的几个月

若我没有认识过酱的一个人那该多好？

无论如何
还是想对昨晚听我诉苦的那个朋友
虽然不是很熟很熟的朋友
也很少见面了
但是至少把事情讲完了
心理的负担也没那么重了啦
还有慧娟, 谢谢你相信
starfish的再生能力很强的..

还有~你要不爽我是你家的事
顶多我礼尚往来罢了！反正也无所谓的..

在这一刻，突然间想起了一首歌……

不过我知道我刚刚又做了一件很笨的事
过了就算
也希望他不会酱认真地对待它啦~

seriously..

For most of them..
That's not a problem..
they don't even care about it!
But for me.. It is! seriously~
but i can do nothing to change it
i hate myself for being like that actually!
and it affects my mood the whole day..
and damn stress sitting beside a person who is too good..
Thought of looking for a better seat for me though i feel sorry to her
cause there was an exam during the 1st lesson

And finally found something that really similar to my mood
~RoLLEr CoasTer~

and oh gosh!
I was talking to my friend last night..
for more than an hour on the phone..
and at last he said
Did you realised that 90% of what you said is about the topic?
oh my god! i don't want to be like that!
I want to change myself and forget bout it..
Friend.. please stop me if i mention anything bout him again!
I'm serious this time!

What happened today?

What will you react when you accidentally saw someone
reading your blog during the computer lesson?
I really accidentally notice that when i suspecting that..
oh my god!
And i was trying to login to blogger so much to paste a Warning..

but then.. i failed to do so as the connection there was terrible!
Just can say that..
if you do wanna suspect me..
or telling anyone bout what i've wrote here..
just suspect!! i can do nothing..
What will happen tomorrow? who knows?

Does the year of rat means bad luck to everything?
I've been 1st time hearing my friend telling me
that she's in serious situation..
since i knew her four years ago..
And too many bad things happening to people around..
Stress.. Love.. Studies.. Friendship.. Health..
Money matters.. Family.. Decision for the Future..
who doesn't face problems in this world?
even the richest man do..

And what will you answer if someone asking you:
"Why dont i follow the path of people who commit suicide?"
and what can you answer?
cause people who asking this must be facing great problems..
and everything you said might affects what they'll do the next moment..
For me.. cause i think that we are actually much more
lucky than lots of people in other corners of the world..
And that must be a purpose of life if you are given birth to this world
As for you.. at least you are a great friend to me..
Friend, remember that there's always a purpose for u to live..
And friends always be right beside you..

My saturday..

Due to some reasons.. i deleted one post..
cause someone says he suspecting something after reading it..
and should be telling rui ling bout it..
 although someone might saw it before..
but just forget bout it..

and i'm really getting mad of my stupid exams..
but luckily something surprising really helps me balance it..
guess what? hehe ^^
and hey man! i was so happy when the schools end..
cause finally i can go for lunch n ignore everything around..
and i really dunno that he was walking out the class that time also..
so is there any problem if we walks out together too?

u guys are really crazy..
relating everything to both of us..
what else can u all do except this?
anyway.. dun care bout it la..
Its not the truth.. that's it..
but i think when 07's 5s1 n 5s3 merge
they will have really great power..
it should be horrible actually!
coz bryan said, 5s3 rocks.. =.="

and then, i've been sitting at the corner for one week d..
and thought that they would forget bout me soon..
but they seems cant forget bout me..
include the "cute" teacher.. (vomiting~)
so i really can do nothing..
funny and stupid things happening around the whole week..
i tried to ignore it and give no response..
but joanne said : We need something to entertain us in class..
and u are the good person who did that..
oh my god! what a 'good' reason they have..

happy!

Always happy everytime i see u guys kicking football
cause always see everyone seems so happy that time
i started stay alone nowadays.. and thats great!
and at least i become less emotional as no one makes me angry
but still heard bout lots of sad stories around
anyway.. life can either miserable or beautiful..
just depends on how you look at it..
Yeah! at least i have good mood though its kinda lonely.. haha ^^

今日格言

我不是喜欢你们讲才不觉得生气
只是都酱久了都习惯了拉~
谁害的？
不过嘴巴是人家的
我怎样都控制不住地拉
清者自清就好了啦！

无论如何
还是佩服了那个将令我讨厌的人呢！
因为至少我从来没酱讨厌过一个人..
不过现在应该没事了拉

am i mad?

Starfish went hanging out with friends today
and someone invited rui ling!
but Starfish is 7 not shuang since this afternoon!
although no one makes me mad or something
Just dunno why suddenly feel like crying there
thats why i just sit at the back and the corner
so that no one disturbing
and kai hoe..
thats why u asked me why am i so quiet today?
but still sorry for the suddenly scolding of "chee sin"
firstly, i feel like someone not shuang me.. extremely!
and secondly, just kinda sien n feel like wanna cry
thirdly.. i also dunno!
 then, i didnt not shuang him for not fetching us home
since thats not what he MUST do
so what for i'm angry of him
and he have his own friends
of coz he can go out with them!!

lastly, i really didn't like him
so don't simply say things
as i start feeling that he's scare of me or others
as for everything to be good
its better for us to stay 3 feet away!
anything lar!
WHO CARES?!

and the really final thing!
i'm really worried about a friend
who is now in a situation which is more worse than mine
yup, i saw u today just for few seconds..
and if others don't say,
i'll be lack of socializing n don't really know whats happening
hope everything will be better tomorrow!
for everyone who saw this

but now, just feeling like looking for someone to talk..

7不爽！
为什么整天都将倒霉的?!
去死啦！