happy!

Always happy everytime i see u guys kicking football
cause always see everyone seems so happy that time
i started stay alone nowadays.. and thats great!
and at least i become less emotional as no one makes me angry
but still heard bout lots of sad stories around
anyway.. life can either miserable or beautiful..
just depends on how you look at it..
Yeah! at least i have good mood though its kinda lonely.. haha ^^

今日格言

我不是喜欢你们讲才不觉得生气
只是都酱久了都习惯了拉~
谁害的？
不过嘴巴是人家的
我怎样都控制不住地拉
清者自清就好了啦！

无论如何
还是佩服了那个将令我讨厌的人呢！
因为至少我从来没酱讨厌过一个人..
不过现在应该没事了拉

am i mad?

Starfish went hanging out with friends today
and someone invited rui ling!
but Starfish is 7 not shuang since this afternoon!
although no one makes me mad or something
Just dunno why suddenly feel like crying there
thats why i just sit at the back and the corner
so that no one disturbing
and kai hoe..
thats why u asked me why am i so quiet today?
but still sorry for the suddenly scolding of "chee sin"
firstly, i feel like someone not shuang me.. extremely!
and secondly, just kinda sien n feel like wanna cry
thirdly.. i also dunno!
 then, i didnt not shuang him for not fetching us home
since thats not what he MUST do
so what for i'm angry of him
and he have his own friends
of coz he can go out with them!!

lastly, i really didn't like him
so don't simply say things
as i start feeling that he's scare of me or others
as for everything to be good
its better for us to stay 3 feet away!
anything lar!
WHO CARES?!

and the really final thing!
i'm really worried about a friend
who is now in a situation which is more worse than mine
yup, i saw u today just for few seconds..
and if others don't say,
i'll be lack of socializing n don't really know whats happening
hope everything will be better tomorrow!
for everyone who saw this

but now, just feeling like looking for someone to talk..

7不爽！
为什么整天都将倒霉的?!
去死啦！

i spoilt it?

shit! i spoilt it..
accidentally with my stupid hands which i cant control when i'm typing something..
but actually there's few person who got it..
so its nothing special..
and what happened today?
we got scolded by our class teacher early in the morning..
though it starts making me feel guilty or something..
but at least i think that we were happy that time..
so i've forgot about it few hours after that..
and have a really really boring day in class..
where i cant concentrate for no reason
and having no one sitting with me after pig pig left..
and trying to do something really odd n weird around.. stool!
thats really stupid and please dont do that again, gal!
its really confusing people around..
and the rest of my time in school..
i really day-dreaming.. thinking bout something else..

Someone asked me this few days..
they asked me whether do i really wanna study business in the future..
i'll answer 70% it will be true..
and after you ask why..
i'll answer the same old reason..
Science-related courses are definitely boring..
its not the matter of you have to study bout the same things in your four years university/ college life..
its just the matter of what kind of jobs u'll have in your future..
everyday facing food and do experiment on it to improve it if u study food science?
or everyday medicine when u study the well-pay pharmacy?
or what else?
my mind is totally blank for now..
and later.. why don't you leave and study Business now?
i have no idea why i did this stupid decision, staying in chong hwa for one more year and fighting with bio, chem, physics and maths..
and having exams exams and exams for the whole year..
and keep on failing it ( just for maths!) ...
as i hate the feel of failure.. although i started to ignore the feel after times..
but luckily there's still some reasons why i don't quit..
or maybe some place i want to go must have at least a foundation for it..
so study in chong hwa would be the cheapest..
maybe this year would be the stupiest year i've ever had for making wrong decisions all time..
but maybe as someone said..
Think wisely in the coming months and decide what you really want..

Theres no point i'm typing bout this with my poor english..
ohya.. i saw my brother's msn name writing:
you can do the simulation:- graduation and lead to a normal life.. and maybe u will live happily ever after..
but i hate that.. i dont want that lar!
and thats why he ask me to go for seminars..
i wanted to go lar gor.. but no one accompany me! so cham~
and someone told me bout chances.. like giving a talk
stool! i know you have to appreciate every chance and opportunity you have..
but sometimes you do have to believe that something is really impossible!
and please dont ever try to like/ love someone who will forever wont likes/love u..
this doesn't mean something special.. just some normal feelings..
what will happen tomorrow? nobody knows..
hope everything will be okay especially when we meet and he wont take it too serious..
and good luck to everyone who are taking the JPA interview in the coming days..!

奇怪的人..

最近的认真的不懂是压力过大
神经过敏还是有问题等
每个人讲的话越来越惹
朋友帮个忙传达一下消息也可以乱讲一通的
要不然就是上课上到一半
坐在我前面的三个人又不懂在讲什么
讲讲下就转过来对着我傻笑..

今天没有什么很特别的事
只是原本打算放学约好在小巷那边吃吃东西
反正只有半个小时多的时间
不过走走下他们竟然说去mutiara吃tim..
军威,可扬, 冠聪,伟伦..
你们真的是.. 无言啦！
就是从学校走出去
什么事都要把我跟他扯在一起
吃东西是更是无聊
10个人吃东西
可是又总是喜欢讲一大堆毫无根据的东西
连tissue也可以讲到跟我们有关系 =.="
结果就是..当然是迟到啦！哈哈~ ^^
还有vincent,信健他们也是
我真的是为了等弟弟放学
然又在食堂全部人都走了,又没事做
所以才过去你们那边的啦~

琪, 他不觉得无奈我也觉得拉~
然后哦..他很可怜了的啦~
虽然我也是..可是算了吧？

麒, 今天不是我不要跟你换位
只是为了避免换了你们又会有一大堆东西讲
然后我换过去有没有人跟我讲话
所以.. sorry lor~

ok...下星期基本上去学校三天罢了
所以也不会有什么机会见到的啦
因为有两天我们轮流没去上课
所以不会那么尴尬吧!!

背影

最近都坐在班上的最后一排
上课也轻松多了
听不听、专心或不专心都有你自己选择
每天看着同样的背影
偶尔在上课时留意到的
偶尔是下课时间注意到的
偶尔是放学走出学校的时候
可是却缺少了一股勇气
少了那股让我去跟他讲话的勇气
有时候真的想想
当时候为什么我跟他竟然会讲起话来的？

friends..

never ever believe your "friends" so much..
they just twist your words..
and creating stories to tell..
or adding something into the original story to make it more interesting
or just changing the original one to make it a better topic
and also people who gamble for something with these stories..
i just heard bout it today..
we cant control what people want to say about..
so we just said.. Let it be!
thats just rumours or gossip people talking bout..
and some "friends" are "betrayals"..
they did nothing very seriously wrong but just sharing your secret to others..
and its just suddenly we've got the chance to sit so near..
but its all teacher's arrangment without noticing anything..
so it means nothing also..
so thats no point to say that i'm happy to sit at that place..
and friend.. i ddn't meant not to talk to rui ling..
just its because either i have nothing to talk to him or i'm really afraid of you guys who have great imaginations..
so, dont try to make chances to give me chance to call his name or whatever!

校庆园游会

今天还蛮开心的
不过还是蛮闷的拉
因为四个出去的人都不是很熟
只是偶尔会讲下话咯..我是自闭的！
不过还是觉得满对不起琪琪的
不过现在应该是没事了啦
不过明天会发生什么事
我也控制不了的啦
反正越说越乱水的啦！
顺其自然吧！

讲回今天的事情
首先是学校校庆园游会



然后就是小小的farewell..

amy,振江 n 正洋

friendly amy..

cute cute振江

还有班主任..

然后就去看看戏..
water horse.. 结果又累又闷的
四个人里面只有传麒没睡着
然后吃了晚餐才回家
大概830才回到咯
由于太懒得打了..就忘了他吧！

朋友要离校了(续)..

一个朋友要离校了
明天是他最后一天来
大家好好珍惜啦
结果那天msn和他谈谈下谈了满久的
原来才发现到
初中一大家进来时
也像现在酱很少认识新朋友
讲了讲才懂其实原因有两的
一是初一时太害羞了..
二是高三时大家都已经有了自己的朋友
参不参班上起与新来的也没什么
就只是跟回以前那一班朋友罢了
讲了一下又不懂做么提起初一的时候
那时真的很少很少认识班上的人的
所以以前我们也不算认识拉
可是难得在同班多一次
他又要走了~
有一部分的chat是酱的
.:: starfisH ::. says:
yalor.. 5 years d finally can become classmate again.. then u leave.. sad leh
[c=4][b]O A B[/b][/c]~~ says:
aikz..nw leavin but haven build up relationship wid clazmates
说真的
以后见到大概也变成陌生人了吧？
haiz..

最近还是发现班上有一个cool cool的人
真的开学到现在没跟他讲过话的
然后放学时常常走到行政楼前都看到的人
可是却不敢跟他讲话的~

刚刚跟DOR不懂又讲什么
讲讲下又讲到我的班
结果越讲越失望..
虽然没那么抗拒着班了..都三个月了咯
只是觉得还是很有问题啦

中華！生日快樂！
明天園游會咯！我在中華讀的最後一次..